Subconcious

Your subconscious mind is one of the greatest liars in existence. It sends you back to your own errors about your abilities. You have created negative attitudes in your subconscious and it gives these errors back to you. So just turn on your subconscious and feed it nothing but positive thoughts.

For the past months I have experienced the worst and lowest point of my life..even my eating habits had suffered too...but on a positive note, i have lost weight..hihihi....everything seems so dull..parang wala kang bukas na aasahan..parang lahat na lang ng ginagawa mo palpak at walang kwenta...parang there is nothing worth living each day...ika nga sa work namin wala kang nagawang productive....tsk tsk tsk..hayyy

I guess lahat ng tao dumarating sa point na parang wala kang pupuntahan..you are very bored...and you just do things just to pass time without even realizing kung para saan sia...at minsan matutulala ka na lang sa kawalan...at mapapaiyak minsan...di mo na alam ang gagawin mo...hay sometimes life really sucks...bakit kaya ganun?minsan kung iaanalyze mo sia..it will lead to something..tapos kapag naanalyze mo na sia...magtataka bakit mo hinayaan mo mangyari yun...you should have done this , done that...nakakapagod sia talaga....
But then sometimes we really makes our lives more miserable by thinking negative things in the back of our mind...sometimes you will just hurt yourself thinking the unthinkable..thinking of things that will either disappoint or hurt you...why does we always let people, things and everything around us affect that way.....hayy....people really think too much...and doesn't do good sometimes...

Two weeks ago, I have requested for a one week leave from the office and just enjoy waking up late in the morning and staying late at night...I cried all the things that make me cry...hopefully last na yon...ay di pala last yon..hihihi..it was a semi-restful leave...I have enjoyed just bumming around the net..without thinking that your manager is currently looking at your back and seeing you have lots of IM windows and asking you that it would really help if you change your IM id..duh ever....i have visited some old friends and finished unfinished business....not a typical vacation leave...but i learned something during these vacation leave kuno of mine ..everything around you will always affect you, maybe it be good or bad..it is always up to you how you will manage it...it really helps when you just think of happy thoughts and telling yourself its not as bad as it looks...everything will turn out fine..if long ago, you just shrugged off when you have made a mistake of making a job contention error between your adhoc job and a production job..why not do the same thing when you forgot to include some things in the documentations....you are just human and prone to mistakes...just learn to acknowledge what you did wrong and remember to make sure that it will not happen again...don't let it affect to much...you dont have to wallow in self pity...hahahaha....easier said than done...
sabi nga jan sa taas...our subconconcious is the greatest liars in existence...sometimes it will really make us remember our past mistakes...but maybe we always got the wrong interpretation of it..our subconscious is not telling us to do these mistakes again..and suffered thinking about it...maybe it's telling us from this mistakes...we should learn from it and turn this to make our lives easier and produced positive results...and positive thoughts produced positive results...

I have learned a lot of things for the past few months from a lot of people around me...and i know these will help me see things more clearly now...i may not realize the value of some of these things for now..but i know in HIS time....it will
I will always be grateful for all the people GOD has allowed me to touch my life in both bad and good way in these long journey of life...im really glad that when you are feeling so down and low..and nothings seems going right..there were always be people around you who will help you get throught even if they were also for their own battles...and i will always enjoy thanking them and mentioning them in this little space of mine...

MITCH -- thanks for always listening to my crying..i will surely miss you girl when you went abroad..mahal na tawag eh..hahahaha..thanks din for making me realize that thing hahaha alam mo na yon...and thanks for always believing kaya ko eto...at siempre that im worth it....you are simply one of the best...at pasaway lang yang bess mo wahahahahaha....

REV -- thanks for always making me laugh after a good cry...thanks for always listening sa mga rants ko...kahit alam ko kahit kw mismo me sarili kang battle na nilalabanan...its been really a tough time for us right now...salamat ng madami for bearing it all with me...i know i may not be a good adviser sometimes..but i do hope nakakatulong ako by just listening to you and maybe feed you some info about your crush...wahahahahhaa....and i do hope you'll continue making me laugh when i needed one...giving me listening ear...give me a pat on the back when i need one...helping me when it seems i can't get through it and lastly continue basshing the people around us...wahahahhaa jokes jokes....basta one day magugulat ka na lang sa gagawin ko...wahahahahahhaa....you are really one treasured friend i won't forget ever....and i will terribly miss you kapag wala na ako sa ***toot***..hehehhehee

TITO DAN -- for the short span of time that I have known you...im really thankful for lending me your ears when I needed one..merci beaucoup...i hope i got the right spelling..and of course thank for always being there....basta alam mo na yon...parang nauubusan ako ng word sau eh.....hihihihi....and tito dan...you gave me a new definition of friendship..hihihihi

GAGAY AT JADE -- salamat sa mga pampalakas ng loob..lague...

sa lahat ng taong nakasakit sa akin..maraming salamat for making me cry..because all the tears I shed make me more stronger everyday....

Merci, God for always helping me get through all this times....

at bago ko malimot, oppa HYUN BIN...thanks for always making my day complete by just looking at you....hihihihi