here we go again

talk about being creative for post titles...i have been wanting to write for quite sometime..as i usually practice i have a lot of mind i need to let some out...some i can say...are just usual dilemmas but some oh well..i don't know to categorize it...or if there is a need to be...hehehe

despite me being with hihihi and hehehe in my post..i have too many things on my mind..really...one is the expenses i will incur going to japan..finally it was sinking in..waaaaahh......but i believe God will never leave me..he allowed me to go to japan this year..because it was meant to be so i am sure..all things will work out...

my work...*sighs*...i really don't know what i wanted to talk about here..at first i have mixed emotions being rolled off from my current project..i am a little relieved because well i wont be working with some colleagues whom i really find irritating...but i still feel disappointed thinking..maybe something was wrong with me that's why the client decided to took me off the project...but as far as i know..i have worked my best...but well not exceptional but still i work with what is expected of me....or maybe i am waiting for somebody to tell..hey you have done a great job!!! urggh...why i am expecting...maybe something really is wrong with me...but i am sure will miss working with everyone..too bad...when we were just being close this happens...and it was fun learning all those things again...

and now my family...its been on the back of my mind..to either rent on my own or with my family and leave my brother who has a child here in our old house..still dont know whats the right way to do it...because well clearly it involves a lot of money..and i have future plans...which i really dont know what will happen...i want to go work overseas again...so some things are really messed up on my head...
and i want to have a business so i have another source of income besides working....and i dont plan on staying until june with my recent company...*sighs*

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