being alone
i always thought myself very brave and strong..i do not feel easily homesick..everyone was amazed at how i just enjoying myself my first weekend abroad..miles miles away from family....but today when i walked into the doctor's clinic..i just wished my sister or mother was with me...or even just a friend...
today finally i have admitted and accepted i need medical help with my menses..its not that because i plan to get married or whatever...i am actually lying to myself telling people i now get irritated buying lots of sanitary napkins..but i think i need do something with this problem...i think for the first time in my life...i will be going to a very important medical history in my life....
finally after two years...i am taking action on my heavy bleeding and menses...there are a lot of things to be tested...i think....but im praying to God..there is nothing wrong that needs major operation...
im lucky..all the information was given to me..but sometimes thinking about it makes me really scared..
i hate hospitals...i am never fond of visiting friends and my family going in unless its giving birth..giving birth is okay..its a new life...but if its sick..i can't handle it...i think was lucky enough not to witness my sister's confinement in public hospital due to the burns she has suffered....
i will never forget the first time i saw my father at the hospital because of a vehicular accident..my heart was torn into pieces..seeing my father at the hospital bed and his injured feet...i am impressed with my sister and mother they have witnessed enough sufferings for them to be strong being in hospital..
i need to write this down..because i cannot stop thinking about it...i know God will never abandon me...but somehow i wish and i hope i have a tangible or a person that is with me to go through it with me....
i know i can do it...but i need someone to support even if it just moral support..i want my mother to take care of me or even my sister...i just want my family...
today finally i have admitted and accepted i need medical help with my menses..its not that because i plan to get married or whatever...i am actually lying to myself telling people i now get irritated buying lots of sanitary napkins..but i think i need do something with this problem...i think for the first time in my life...i will be going to a very important medical history in my life....
finally after two years...i am taking action on my heavy bleeding and menses...there are a lot of things to be tested...i think....but im praying to God..there is nothing wrong that needs major operation...
im lucky..all the information was given to me..but sometimes thinking about it makes me really scared..
i hate hospitals...i am never fond of visiting friends and my family going in unless its giving birth..giving birth is okay..its a new life...but if its sick..i can't handle it...i think was lucky enough not to witness my sister's confinement in public hospital due to the burns she has suffered....
i will never forget the first time i saw my father at the hospital because of a vehicular accident..my heart was torn into pieces..seeing my father at the hospital bed and his injured feet...i am impressed with my sister and mother they have witnessed enough sufferings for them to be strong being in hospital..
i need to write this down..because i cannot stop thinking about it...i know God will never abandon me...but somehow i wish and i hope i have a tangible or a person that is with me to go through it with me....
i know i can do it...but i need someone to support even if it just moral support..i want my mother to take care of me or even my sister...i just want my family...
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