what did i do this time

*sighs*...why why do i feel i belong to a different team..i need to catch up a lot..everyone is already ahead of me....huhuhuhu..Lord...help me...

today we got an email from my manager regarding surfing the net and reading novels while in the office...all the while i thought it has nothing to do with me...then here is a teammate of mine who decided to tell me out of his good heart told me..i'm the one who was caught just surfing the net...
i kept thinking what sites have I visited for the past few days that are non related..but all i can remember is those sites about vietnam characters how to convert them..

i really felt sad..and disappointed...i feel like im falling apart..i am trying so hard at my work..but i feel like im being left out..i fell that someone is trying to tell me hey you...you don't deserve to be here..what did i do...to them..i am grateful for their kind hearts for allowing me to stay in their department...

but how how...my self confidence is already dwindling down...i feel like everyone has run ahead of me and i'm stucked..i want to move too..

Lord...let your will be done..hopefully i can save enough money for me to transfer to a new job...

all these times i always try to say to myself those people are not at fault..its my own attitude...i need to learn to know my value...hahahaa..minsan i want to go back to my former boss who advised me to go out of rustans..maybe i will try to see him..pagbakasyon ko..

ehehhehee...yun muna...

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