Realization

yesterday i thought my day will turned out to be bad..but im glad it didnt turned our the way i expect them to be..in the morning i was talking with my highschool frends..one is offering me business(kuno)thru networking(ahhh again....)actually he was right i'm closed minded about these things...and in fact im really wondering i always got convinced by the people who claim success about these but in the end things didnt exactly cooperate hehehhee....maybe they are meant to be success about it..but ako..i dont think so...hahahaha sobrang closed minded talaga..i always believe na if God wants it for you...everything will go smoothly..i mean di ba..haller...siempre tutulungan ka nia..although naniniwala rin ako nasa Dios ang awa nasa tao ang gawa..ohmigosh napakacontradicting noh wahahahahhahaa....well while we are talking..nasabi ko lang don sa frend na parang napakaunproductive ko these past few daws...which is true which i enter yesterday..then he told to go out of the box..haller..di ko gets....syeet ang bobita ko talaga these days...eniweis...next in line naman nakausap ko yung matagal k na ring chatmate si marilyn aka sweetangel...nag-away daw sila ng bf nia...at ayun sobrang naiinis..i mentioned a few comforting words..know what its really true that when you are feeling down..and you have helped somebody and lighten the burden of that someone...you will benefit more because of the help that you get...i know i didn't help her too much because i have to went to lunch and she has to sleep..(she's in the US)...i think just listening or rather reading her worries and anguish..makes her feel lighter..so medyo oks na ako during lunch time..and to top it all i got to eat the lunch i want...hahahahaha...the KFC hotshots meal...one of mah favorites...oh di ba talk about a day!!!but it isn't over....i have a household meeting with lower households...im confident enough all of them would come...coz when i texted them they all said yes..talk about word of honor...waaaaaahh..our meeting was supposed to be at 7 pm in MCDonalds New Frontier branch...guess what at 5 pm one texted and she said she cant come because her cough is giving her too much trouble..so i said ok...around 6 i left the office to go to our meeting place...as i arrived there i didn't recognize any members of mine that was early..that was fine with..i am waiting for two people...so i went to the line to get some sundae and a large fries(hihihihi di naman ako mahilig sa pampataba)so i sat down and wait...i didnt text to those two whom im waiting kasi im positive darating sila...well isa nga lang...and im glad she came...there it turned to be a one on one than a meeting..she poured out her story to me..things i really dont know about her..she opened up a part of her life and im lucky enough to be able to be there and listen..as she was talking and telling me about her life...guess wat happened...i really feel light parang lahat ng worries at the beginning of the day biglang nawala...i mean they are not in the back of mind..still hihihihihi....i mean this girl is so young but she is thinking more than her age...and i really admire...some people would not be brave enough to tell people that they are single parents...the others would just keep it until you will knew about it in another way...pero sia sinabi nia talaga sa akin..wow its an honored talaga...i forgot lang to text her to say thanks for sharing that part of her life...magulo at sobrang hirap na hirap sia especially now..dami niang problems..but she still copes...i always say to people na di tayo bibigyan ni Lord ng problem kung di natin kaya..kahapon i was doubting that..because my mother just had a mild stroke(her face is distored now)..and i know my mother to dwell in self pity...at di yon makakatulong sa kanya..di kami showy na mga anak nia thru affections we do it in other ways...sana na nga nagmamanifest na ganun..so parang after 2 days of not going to church before going to work i decided to pass by this time...i didn't pray that my mother be well..i know God has a reason why this happens I just asked God to let my mother accept the things that is happening to us and her.. and never dwell in self pity...coz i know it will all break our hearts...all of us i know deep inside have our own fears...kami sa bahay..siguro di lang namin pinapakita sa isa't isa na takot kami sa pwedeng maging outcome nung nangyari sa mother ko..it could lead to a worse things(knock on the wood)na lam naming di pa kami prepare...i prayed nga kanina na sana maintindihan namin bakit nangyari yung ganun..yun lang...pero deep in my heart i know...i want my mother to be well and enjoy life longer gusto sia pa mag aalaga sa akin kapag dumating yung time na may asawa na ako at may baby na...i dont want to be negative about these things i just want things to be well pero minsan talaga you cannot help feeling sad at isipin ang mangyayari bukas..geez im crying na...wait lang..but everything happens for a reason..i know for these past days..may problem ako sa prayertime at ska sa mga haushold ko in short my service is taken for granted...im not giving enough for time for HIM..sabi nga ng kausap ko kagabi..problems are wake up calls for us..sinasabi ni Lord na nakakalimutan mo naman ako eh...andito pa ako..well tama nga si LORD nakakalimutan ko na sia..at natatake for granted..and im glad he's giving me another chance...he'll be giving me a new group of people to enlighten about HIM..i just hope i do justice...we'll lets just pray about it...and also sana everyone who can read this will pray for me too..god bless