hmmm

two months without work..already...its kinda deja vu..in 2006...when i decided to quit my jobs and look for a better one...the only thing different now is that im not going out of the country but rather going back to my own country...

i pray that God give patience so that whatever that is happening for me will be in HIS TIME...i want to pray that God teach me to trust in him again..

sometimes i go back thinking what if i never resigned and just finished my contract would it be the same...as i told my friend mitch...i tried to save the money going back to china...but i think its more messier now...

i know i will never hear complain from my family being in their care for a while..but its my stubborn pride....that wanted...i want to have work now..because i cant buy the things that i want....yeah..i didnt have savings...well i did have only small...i think enough for me to last..until the next two weeks of the month...how pathetic.....

*sighs*

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